Heh my first entry in journal. . . not like anyone will read it anyway XD
Seem like I just need to talk with myself somewhere lol

Bwah lately I just can't draw anything *pouts* I feel kinda lost . . . I know what most of my art is missing (well backgroud of course xDD ehm) and that's some liiiife to it geee. Yeah I am in a phase of harsh realyzation or what haha

Always watching these people which are so much better then me. It makes me want to get better too, but climbing up is so hard . . . when I get even a little tiny bit better I always see that no it's not enoug not enough at all and try to get better again with a next pic . . .

Well I know I still can improve, of course becouse there is just so many things to lear and try out yet, but I feel like I am building an unsteady house. Always trying to get better and not having a proper base or how to say it. Just quickly, quickly becouse again I feel like others will leave me behind.

Haaach seem like I am waiting for my hause to crumble one of these days . . .

Man I am babbling again aren't I :'D lol sorry XD